Wednesday, January 06, 2010

am i crazy?

I've been sitting at the kitchen table this evening surrounded by textbooks, and papers, and books on good teaching practices. My sharpies have been madly jotting down all the wayward thoughts, grand ideas, and art doodles my mind has been spinning around.

It's been such a short time since I quit teaching and yet in the field of education, such a long time to be away. Things move lightning fast and being gone for two years can leave a person feeling completely lost at their re-entry. Maybe it is just that I really haven't had to use my brain in the lesson planning/teaching whole group capacity for a while now and it will just take a little time. Surely it is normal to feel a little overwhelmed? Surely.

In a little less than two weeks I will be standing in front of a group of college freshmen. College freshmen with big dreams of becoming teachers. Me. Oh my. I can't dwell on that too long. I can scarcely believe I just typed those words.

I am excited. I am nervous. I question myself and my abilities. I feel unworthy and way too blessed to have been given this opportunity. I am thankful and in awe of how God can work.

I have so much work to do and my brain feels like mush. I keep plugging away hoping that things will fall neatly into place and get done. And they will, cause they'll have to.

9 comments :

  1. Don't think I missed the entire post of your post or anything, but...I love sharpies.


    Oh, and: You'll do great! Duh.

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  2. Jen,
    Maybe we need to have a collaboration before you head back....5 heads are ALWAYS better than one:)!

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  3. That's true!!! We could totally collaborate and just brain storm ideas!! That might be fun... :)

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  4. BTW... you'll do GREAT! You have so many great ideas. It's going to be alright. You just have to get back into the swing of things again. Love ya!

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  5. Don't doubt yourself. You're perfect for this and because God brought it all together, you know it's going to be great!

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  6. You have been placed as those students' teacher for a reason!! One because God ordained it, and two because there is no better person to inspire and influence those students! YOU GO GIRL!!!

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  7. Praying things fall into place. You will do great and your students, not matter what age, love you!

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  8. You're going to teach college? What subject are you teaching? Those boys are gonna LOVE you! :)

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  9. Are we talking about a "Fab Five" collaboration night? I am so in!

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