Wednesday, April 30, 2008

Musings

I want to be an encouraging person. I want my time on this earth to mean something to someone else. I just left an hour of refreshing conversation with a couple that I just love. Every time I talk to them, I leave feeling lighter. How do they do it? It is just amazing.
What a blessing to build others up. What a blessing to help someone gain a fresh outlook on life. All too often I get caught up in my own life and don't give of myself. I know my excuses well... I am too busy right now to get involved... I don't have anything to say to them... I can't bear their weight as well as mine... and on and on. What is my purpose here if I don't help others? Something to think about for sure.

Tuesday, April 08, 2008

A New Season

Well, it is official. I turned in my letter of resignation. I am really going to be a stay home mother. I have many emotions about this new season of life. I've always wanted to be a teacher, so it feels a little awkward to pack up that part of my life so suddenly. With the end of the year quickly approaching, I know it won't be long before I no longer have "my room" or "my kiddos" and I am not really sure how I am going to feel about that. I've put a lot of time and money into what I do and now it will all go in boxes for another day. Hmmmm..... I wonder how long I will be away from it. And then, there is this huge part of me that is so thrilled that I have a wonderful husband who works hard so I have this opportunity! I get to stay home with my child. I get to be the one to teach her and play with her. I get to pour my heart into my home. Wow...in today's age, I know that isn't always possible. It will definitely be strange come August when the smell of new crayons and crisp paper draw me down the aisle in WalMart and I turn away, but I am trusting God and this decision he has made so obvious on my heart.