am i crazy?

I've been sitting at the kitchen table this evening surrounded by textbooks, and papers, and books on good teaching practices. My sharpies have been madly jotting down all the wayward thoughts, grand ideas, and art doodles my mind has been spinning around.

It's been such a short time since I quit teaching and yet in the field of education, such a long time to be away. Things move lightning fast and being gone for two years can leave a person feeling completely lost at their re-entry. Maybe it is just that I really haven't had to use my brain in the lesson planning/teaching whole group capacity for a while now and it will just take a little time. Surely it is normal to feel a little overwhelmed? Surely.

In a little less than two weeks I will be standing in front of a group of college freshmen. College freshmen with big dreams of becoming teachers. Me. Oh my. I can't dwell on that too long. I can scarcely believe I just typed those words.

I am excited. I am nervous. I question myself and my abilities. I feel unworthy and way too blessed to have been given this opportunity. I am thankful and in awe of how God can work.

I have so much work to do and my brain feels like mush. I keep plugging away hoping that things will fall neatly into place and get done. And they will, cause they'll have to.